Im the girl.

Im the girl who prefers one daisy over a dozen roses. Im the girl who would rather stay in on a friday night than go out to a wild party. Im the girl who wont let you do anything i insist on doing everything myself. Im the girl who would enjoy having a movie night over going to some fancy over priced restaurant. Im the girl who would rather stay up all night play board games with a bunch of friends then going out and getting drunk with a bunch of friends. Im the girl who wont let you hold her bags but would love fro you to hold her hand. Im the girl who would love you more than anyone could ever possibly dream of. But im the girl that nobody sees. Because im the girl everyone thinks they done want. Tm the girl who is always just a friend. IM the girl that has all the big dreams. Im the girl with the big heart, the one that would do anything for anyone. Im the girl that gets trampled on, used, betrayed, and hurt. But im the girl who stands strong and tall with a smile on her face despite it all. Because im the girl who knows there is a lesson in every heartbreak, there is a new beginning in every failure, and everyone needs someone. Im the girl who would bend over backwards for anyone i love. Im the girl who everyone has always calls the "good girl" the "church girl" the girl who always got teased for the things i do and say. Im the girl who says yes ma'am and no sir. Im the girl who holds the door open for a complete stranger. And im the girl who stands up for the buy you are making fun of. Because im the girl who has had some rough times, maybe not as bad as some of yours. But im the girl who learned from them and grew into a stronger person because of them. Im the girl you will never see without a smile on her face. Im the girl who will be cheering you on when her whole world is crashing down. Im the girl who tries to find a positive outlook in every negative situation. Im the girl who will love you no matter what. Im the girl who always says shes fine even when im not. Im the girl with a one track racing mind. Im the girl who wishes for once in her life everything was really fine. Im the girl who falls for all his sweet phony lines. Im the girl who will one day wish she could go back in time. But right now im the girl who says everything is fine i can fix my problems some other time. Im the girl who bottles my feelings up and explodes them on paper when i can no longer contain them. Im the girl who is determined to shine because i know my future is all mine. Im the girl whose dreams will come true. Because im the girl who is determined enough to follow them through.

Life as we know it.

So it's been a few months since Ive wrote, I love to write, but i always end up writing in a notebook instead of on here. Writing is my escape from life, I write my thoughts, My Dreams, My plans, My fears, I write absolutely everything. Because in writing it can end however you want. You can start out writing a sad story and it end in an amazing happy story. When your writing you have full control over it, no one else has say so in what you write it's all you and that is what i love about it. I know what your thinking or have thought before, to bad we can't write our lives right? Well in all honesty we can in a way. Here is my out look on life. We are like a coloring book page, and God is the artist who made it. When you buy a coloring book the page is white and all there is, is an outline and we color it in. Well our life is like that, We are the coloring Book page and God made the out line. Yes he has a plan for us but we have to choose if we are going to fulfill that plan or take the other path. We have to choose how we are going to color our picture. Sometimes we think we want to color it one way and when we start coloring it we realizes that it looks bad and that's not how we really want it but its to late you cant erase it so you just have to be careful what color you pick after that to make sure it turns out the way you want it. It is exactly like our life, Sometimes we do things we wish we could take back but we don't have a time machine so we have to learn from our mistakes and make better choices from then on out.

I guess that is a funny way to explain it, but it is so very true.

 

I've learned that life is hard and 99.9 % of the time something is always going to wrong, someone is always going to be talking about you, something is always going to be bothering you, there is always going to be something that needs to be done but you just don't have time, sometimes your bills are going to be late, sometimes we get pushed past our limit and say things we shouldn't and sometimes we just want to move 40 states away and change our names and numbers and never give it to anyone. But I've learned that moving 40 states away and starting over still wouldn't fix everything, there is still going to be problems. But what i have also learned is that we need to learn from those problems they just make us stronger and we need to remember that when we have it tough God is always there for us and he never  gives us more then we can handle. We have to learn to take the happy moments as they come and make the most of them, live like you don't have tomorrow because you never know if you really will have tomorrow. 

 

I guess there really isn't a point in this post other then giving you my outlook on life. I used to have the out look that life sucked and wasn't going to get better so you just had to deal with it. But lately Ive been doing a lot of soul searching.( i guess you'd call it that.) and Ive realized how much of my life Ive taken for granted and i wont let that happen anymore. I will fulfil my dreams not matter what it takes, i wont let peoples stupidity get my down, i will hold my head up high and keep going on because i know that with my God nothing is impossible.

2012

So it has been awhile sense i wrote. Ive been pretty busy. I am not finally going to Africa this year i am going to wait until next summer, but i am defiantly going then! Ill be 18 in September and im pretty excited, but dreading it at the same time. I'm ready to get my life started and grow up, but then again im afraid tooo. It was so much easier when i was little, if i had any problems i just ran to my mom or dad, but now that im growing up i have to face life and learn how to handle my problems myself. Which is pretty scary but i know i can do it. (: I got a job at a nail salon right now im just cleaning and helping out with whatever need, but im going to school soon to be a nail tech. Ive always loved painting my friends nails and now im gonna get my license to do Gel nails and stuff like that, its pretty exciting. I plan on going to college at some point in time to become a pediatric nurse but i want to be able to get my own place (as in an apartment or something rented) before i do. I'm not really sure what else im going to do with my life yet just taking it one day at a time and waiting for mr. right. haha. So im sure you could care less about any of this but oh well.

I have decided im not going to date for awhile. It seems like all the guys around here that are my age only want one thing and im not willing to give that. I am ready to grow up and start my life and they arnt, so for now im good with staying single and waiting for him. I don't need to be tied down with a guy to be happy and God will send me the right person when the time is right. Hmm well i guess thats all for now.

Until Next Time,
                  Jessie<3 

Help send me to Africa!

Dear Friends,

I Jessica Bowman recently decided to go on a mission trip to Africa with an organization called Global Expeditions!

Global Expeditions is part of Teen Mania Ministries and in the last 25 years they've taken over 67,000 missionaries like me, to more than 69 countries worldwide.

I'm excited about this trip, because Global Expeditions is committed to equipping me to be affective in reaching out to other in Africa, while also challenging me to become more aware of the needs of others in my own community. I cannot think of a better way to spend my time than sharing the Gospel with others and allowing God to change my own heart and life in the process!

I will spend a total of 53 days in Africa. Ethiopia and Uganda is where we will be ministering. I will be leaving on June 11, 2012 and returning home on August 2, 2012. I will be ministering through drama and street evangelism. The total cost of this trip is $5,141.00 which includes all expenses: airfare, accommodations, food and training. However, this price does not include my round trip from here to Texas where i will be meeting Global Expeditions and the rest of my team.

I cannot accomplish this task alone, I need you help. During the next several weeks I will be working very hard to raise the finances to go. My first deadline is May 29th for $2,500. You can choose to sponsor me for day in Africa for only $97,00. Any amount given will be greatly appreciated, and because Global Expeditions is a registered non-profit, your donations will be tax deductible.

Your support is a key part of seeing salvation and touching peoples lives in Africa. If you have any questions you can reach me at 276.692.4547 or you can call Global Expeditions support line and talk to a Global Expeditions representative a 1.866.545.6239. You can donate online at globalexpeditions.com My missions I.D. is 2568438 or you can mail it to me, Jessica Bowman at 73. Maple St. Patrick Springs VA, 24133.

Thank you for your prayers and support,


Sinserely,

Jessica Bowman.

Music :D

I love this song, im not even sure why. I guess it's because it super sweet, I mean he's pretty much saying this girl is his entire life, he love's her more then anything. I hope one day ill feel this way but who knows what life has ahead. (: i hope you enjoy it as much as i do!



How do I love you
Well let me see
I love you like a lyric loves a melody
Baby, completely
Wrapped up in you

How do I need you
Can't you tell
I need you like a penny
Needs a wishing well
Baby, completely
Wrapped up in you

Every now and then
When the world
That were living in is crazy
You gladly hold me and carry me through
No one in the world has ever done
What you did for me
And I'd be sad and lonely
If there were no you

Well how do I love you
Let me count the ways
There ain't no number high enough
To end this phrase
Baby, completely
Wrapped up in you

Every now and then
When the world
That were living in is crazy
You gladly hold me and carry me through
No one in the world has ever done
What you did for me
And I'd be sad and lonely
If there were no you

How do I love you
Well don't you know
I love you bout as deep
As any love can grow
Baby, completely
Wrapped up in you

Baby, completely
Wrapped up in you


http://youtu.be/XAA2vESE1NI

Life..

Well i cant sleep and i havent wrote in forever. So you get to here more pointless things about my life haha.

Not really much has happened in my life sense the last time i wrote. I'm now seventeen and i am so tired of people asking me if i feel older i am going to say the same thing i do every year. (no i feel the same as the year before ha.)


I have learned you can't trust just anyone and when you do decide to trust someone you better make sure they are worth trusting, other wise you just get stabbed in the back. And i have also learned its not looks or wealth or what people thinks that matters, it's what's in the Heart. It's taken me long enough to figure that out but i have finally decided it's true. I now have one of those friends everyone wants the type you can trust with anything and hey you never know one day maybe we will be more then friends but for now he's the only person i tell everything too and he's the only person I've opened up to in a long time. And i know i can trust him with my life, he's Great and Amazing and everything someone could possibly want in a friend. All's i know is that i hope im at least half the friend he is because i never want to risk losing him.

Hmm i got my wisdom teeth cut out and wound up in the E.R. When the went to cut them out my numbing didn't take so i felt everything and then the medicine they put me on made me sick and i wound up in the E.R. all's i have to say was it was awful and I'm glad its only something that has to be done once.

I crotchet my first baby blanket and it was a success i was very proud. So now Dakotah will have a Gorgeous baby blanket. (:

Hmm well i guess that's all that's new. Yes i know its boring I'm sorry i don't have a very interesting life. haha.

Until Next Time,
Jessie<3

Siblings..

So i have decided Siblings are the Bestfriends you could ever have. Yes we fight, we say we hate each other when we're mad, and we are always insulting each other. But we are the only people who will ever truely understand each other and we will always have each others backs. We may not always agree on the same things, heck we never agree on anything, But they are my bestfriends! i love you guys..

My sister(:

My Brother(: